Being Famous or Being Obscure

I was on the treadmill today at the gym and God started bringing some things back to my memory.

I remember when I first got into ministry I had all these big goals.  Wanted to have a huge youth group, wanted lead worship and speak at all these famous churches.  I did this thinking how I would just be the next big thing for God.  I really wanted to be famous.  I wanted everyone to know who I was.  I wanted to walk down the street and be stopped and people gush over my accomplishments.  I was vain, egotistical and insecure.  I was young and...well...dumb and full of myself!!

One thing I've learned in the past few years is this, I'd rather live in obscurity than be famous.  I love being able just to serve.  I love being part of a local body that is actively doing things to build the Kingdom.  If He gives me the opportunity to speak or to take people into His presence or even to pastor one day, I no longer take it for granted or will take it for granted.  It's something I take seriously!!  

I'm not going to lie and say that those old feelings and emotions don't creep back sometimes.  The enemy knows which buttons to push.  It happens.  I'm not perfect and never will be.

I just want to live and be like Jesus.